By Admin | April 13, 2012
Crying myself to sleep tonight- a feeling so rare, I cannot comprehend. The heart feels sad and so worn out. Perhaps, its the pain I feel. Of losing myself in it. A cut so deep. It bleeds, the reflection of my helplessness. The nothingness. It just doesn’t end. And, I keep coming back. Never to let it rest. The head hurts. So bad.
God of the worlds, I need You as its too tiring. Maybe it’s a mild warning. Of all wrongs. O my Lord, rectify my state. Put good in every decree of my fate. Who else am I to turn to? who else am I to cry for help? You, alone, are my King, my Lord, my Ilah.
The Source and the Creator of good, peace, love and all cures. My ailment has got it all wrong. You’re my Lord and that’s all I want. For I grieve, for peace, tonight. The eyes are full of tears and the heart is full of hurt. God of all mercy, please mend it, protect it and make it Yours. All Yours. For all I know is how very near You are. Nearer to me than any being, any soul – nearer to me than my jugular vein. For this heart beats only if You will.
For everything that has ever happened – the good, the bad, the evil- it’s paving my path to you for You, through You.
Peace is from You. Peace is You, my Lord.